What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from. (T.S. Eliot)

August 19, 2009
12:37 AM

“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.”

It’s been awhile I haven’t posted my thoughts here. August! A month I won’t be able to forget, with all the dramas surrounding my existence right now, it has come to an end (a “period” at the end; no other punctuation marks involved) I felt the inner peace that I was searching for how many years, It is just a matter of acceptance of my so many failures in life and the admission that I was never OK in the first place, inspite of my happy façade.

I have this new habit of reading Bo Sanchez newsletters almost everyday, something that could uplift my spirit now a days. One of his soulfood newsletter that I received was entitled “May I Give You A Tiny Big Gift?” He simply stated: “It’s tiny because it’s just a few simple words sent to you twice a week. But its impact in your life will be gigantic. I know that you’ll be so inspired, so blessed, and so encouraged, you’ll wonder how you could have lived without it.” Without a doubt I signed in to www.GodWhispersClub.com and BO said that I will automatically receive GodWhispers twice a week absolutely free. No cost. No payments. No nothing.

After two days I signed up to GodWhispers, I received my first tiny big gift:

Saturday: August 12, 2009

Dear Juno,

If only you see what I see in you. Then you'll realize how great I am—and how great you are.

Your Infinite Source of Blessings,

God

P.S. I'll give you a hint. Juno, you're more magnificent than a quadrillion suns put together. (And I know suns. I made every single one of them.)

~~ reading the first line really crushed my heart! Why?! Simply because I just then realized that I never did loved myself, I never did forgave myself, and I never was proud of myself. It’s a bit weird right?! Our CREATOR sees something special in us and yet we still felt useless. The reason why I am unable to realize God’s great love for me because I failed to love myself unconditionally. ~~

My second GodWhispers gift:

Wednesday: August 16, 2009

Dear Juno,

Don't give up. Life rewards those who persevere. I promise you that if you don't give up, ultimately, you will find that open door. It has been waiting for you.

Your Door Opener,
God

P.S. When the going gets tough, the tough get going. Juno, I made you tough.

~~ such a very sweet promise coming from a Supreme Being. Before I keep on asking myself what’s in store for me after the many hardships?! Right now, I stood up again with confidence that God has prepared something very extraordinary for me. That I should wait patiently and soon will find that open door that’s been waiting for me eversince. My God made me tough! ~~

My third tiny big gift from GOD:

Saturday: August 19, 2009

Dear Juno,

Life is short. One hundred years is short. So wear your party pants. Be happy. Suck the joy of every single day I give you.

Be happy,

God

P.S. Juno, I want you to celebrate and sing.

~~ this year it seems that known celebrities and friends of friends died unexpectedly, and I know deep with in God wants to tell me something, and this GodWhispers is what He wanted to share with me. I was never a big fan of DEATH; honestly I am scared of that. And through my weakness God talked to me: have fun while you are still alive! My God wanted me to dance and celebrate His goodness once again, after the shattered pieces of my being I once prayed that God would lead me again to a church where I can glorify and worship His holiness. I know I needed to act NOW.

Bo Sanchez indeed is right; this GodWhispers tiny big gift thingy is excellent! I am one of the millions who would say thank you, it did blessed my soul.

BTW, I was dying to remember this song that I once danced from one of our church retreat when I was in manila; I used that song as the prayer of my soul before and I will be using it again right now! I was so happy when I found the lyrics again… I am sharing this song, hope you’ll contemplate at each lyrics and may God touch your heart.

Refine Me

By: Jennife Knapp

I come into this place
Burning to receive your peace
I come with my own chains
From wars I've fought for my own selfish gain
You're my God and my Father
I've accepted your Son
But my soul feels so empty now
What have I become?

Lord, come with your fire,
Burn my desires; refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Refine me

My heart can't see
When I only look at me
My soul can't hear
When I only think of my own fears
They are gone in a moment
You're forever the same
Why did I look away from You
How can I speak Your name?

Lord, come with Your fire,
burn my desires; refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Come rescue this child
For I long to be reconciled to You

It's all I can do
To give my heart and soul to You
And pray, and pray, oh I will pray

Lord, come with Your fire,
burn my desires; refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Come rescue this child
For I long to be reconciled to You

Refine me, refine me
Refine me, refine me

It’s good to have that personal connection again with your Maker. Hope I can reconnect again!

"The beginning is the most important part of the work. (plato)"